From last Friday

Ok Lord, I’m here now. Trying to “just be” in this place instead of feel anxious about getting going in my new job- because wanting to hurry up and feel successful in my new job is purely selfish, anxiety-producing, and not joyful. Clearly not a feeling from You.

I keep hearing that prayer is not meant to change God’s point of view so much as it changes the asker’s heart.  And this verse keeps coming to my attention from Philippians 4:6-7- “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Both of these phrases are posted in my cubicle at work, in hopes of dispelling my doubts about the usefulness of prayer. Again, trying to just say, “Ok,” and be obedient.

I started reading Francis Chan’s book “Crazy Love” this week. I haven’t read it yet because I’m a slow reader and when something’s as trendy as this book was, I can’t keep up. I like to absorb as much as possible the first time around. However, I already know I want to read this one again. I’m only 4 chapters into it, and it’s great so far. If you’ve read it already, let me know what you think.

Blessing: Thursday I volunteered in the bookstore again. As I was restocking the café, Carissa was helping a customer at the register. He bought 2 bibles and a few other items. I didn’t catch what he said, but I looked back and saw them praying at the counter. I asked Carissa about it later, and she said she tries to pray of each bible sold. She asked the customer whom the bibles were for, and she prayed specific prayers for them. One for his wife, and the other for his coworker who just lost his dad. He wanted to help them both through difficult times by using the gospel. Wow. What a blessing to pray for him in that moment, and to have witnessed it. Looking forward to my register training soon!